Hi folks! I’m still feeling useless as last week’s illness really did a number on me. What WAS that virus?! I had a very sore throat so I had difficulty eating and drinking anything, plus a low-grade fever that left my mind in a fog when not medicated. As a result, I did absolutely nothing for training and nearly ruined my mom’s birthday getaway in Tagaytay by being too weak to go. (I went, though, propped up by Berocca and Decolgen.)
I got to talking with one of my friends who’s just gotten back into triathlon training after about three years of burnout. I asked him what kicks him into gear these days. He said he just likes the feeling of needing to move and getting happy doing it. He flipped the question back at me, and I said I just like being good at stuff.
No wonder I haven’t been happy while training lately — I am always trying to hit targets and numbers and generally “trying to be good at stuff”. Even with last week’s realization that it’s all just exercise, my prime motivator for everything I do (whether work or exercise, haha) is a drive to excel. It’s great when you want to turn out quality work, but isn’t so smart when you’re trying to regain fitness. Ilang beses na yang “too much, too soon”.
As I ease back into workouts this week, I need to be extra-conscious of overdoing it and setting myself back even further. This Type-A-ness needs to go. What happened to the Noelle who just liked running for the heck of it, and didn’t even need a Garmin her first year of running? What happened to just enjoying the feeling of moving, rather than quantifying how fast that motion is? What happened to “I’m just thankful I can swim, bike, and run”?
I would like to start from that point of being happy to move. Can you help me, too? I’ve cultivated this image of being a very fit person, always on the go, always fast and competitive… Almost like a fitness robot. But I’m only human. 🙂